I am such a mess right now (and YES, I’m in my pajamas in the photo from above, that is how I spend most of my days since I have projects for school)! I don’t know if any of you have been through this with your own blog, or just in life in general, but it’s god damn hard! What am I doing?! What in the world am I writing about? I don’t have a clear niche, so..
What’s my niche?!
I started this blog in 2016 and I had an idea, I had a vision, yet none of that happened. Every “rule” of blogging says that I must have a niche, I must have a purpose, what am I bringing new to blogging?! Honestly… nothing, and I’m so, so sad to say this. Five minutes ago I wanted to delete this blog, cancel every service I have on WordPress and SiteGround, now I am not sure…
In the beginning I wanted to be like everyone else that has success around here (blogosphere), write promotional blog posts, advertise products and tell you my opinions about those products and I truly have nothing against that, I like writing about what I discovered, or what services I like using, or what products I enjoy using. However, I am in a point in blogging that I don’t know what to write about… I don’t know if I’m being concise with my ideas right now, but I warned you this is a raw text.
Sometimes, I don’t enjoy taking pictures just because I have to insert an image. Again, in the beginning I took photos, like every blogger, wearing something that (at the time) I thought was a good fit for a blog photo, posing “naturally”, even if I wasn’t comfortable doing so, and so on. I don’t enjoy writing about fashion, I like to read about it, but I am not good at writing it myself, I have NO idea how to pose, not a clue about how to style my hair or how to do my make-up. And these are the most searched topics on Google, unfortunately I’m not made for this. You get what you see, I am raw, sometimes I don’t have a filter, I am not fake, I ceased to please everyone since I was 15 years old, but I forgot it when I started this blog, I wanted the popularity, I wanted to become like the big bloggers. I wanted to see what was like being famous, obviously I didn’t make it. I am writing this blog post, because today I realised this is not me, I don’t think I could bear being known for so many people and get recognized on the streets. A year and a half have passed since I launched this blog and I didn’t have time nor do I have it now, to write something worthy, or something that would bring novelty in your lives, as my readers, that if I still have someone… The numbers on Google Analytics are not too encouraging and have no idea if I should continue with this.
But I started this blog with my love for writing! I am writing a book, that poor book is still a draft in my computer because I don’t have time to finish it, writing is my way of disconnecting from my daily duties, if I could make a living out of writing, I would be the happiest. I enjoy creating stories, but I am not sure if I want to share it with the “world”, even if I had an attempt here on the blog in the beginning.
Sometimes, I have so many ideas, and sometimes work just bury me and I give up… yes I am in that point where I don’t know what to do, I am sad, I am constantly angry and everything annoys me, I try too hard and don’t have time to breathe.
I realised I like to write about travel, trips, things like that, say my opinions about places, food, etc., but I can’t travel as much as I want right now. I like writing about problems I encounter daily, for travel I know, the niche is loud and clear, but for the other one?!
I think I should stop here, before I say something I will regret later… I just wanted to get that out and maybe someone who is in the same position as I am, will see that is not alone.